As a teen I believed that my worth always fell beneath that of a Snoopy moon landing Apollo 11 50th Anniversary shirt and I lived in terror thinking that i might marry someone who could hit me, cheat on me or use me sexually without any consequences. I was afraid of being trapped in a marriage with no education and no means to escape or support myself. Sex grossed me out, because i didn’t want to be owned by a man. My dad discouraged me from going to University, and told me that in order to be successful a college/Uni degree would be a waste of time and money… plus there were bad influences all over universities anyways and i’d probably be married and have kids by 23.
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I faithfully obeyed my parents, as per the Snoopy moon landing Apollo 11 50th Anniversary shirt and ended up working for my father for nearly 10 years after highschool and dating 4 major a-holes within that church fellowship. It took me until 25 to finally take control of my living situation. One day I realized that the idea of killing myself filled me with enormous relief and security. After visiting a psychiatrist (also evil, according to my mother when she found out) and confessing this rather alarming sensation to the doctor, she asked me if maybe the reason I felt that way was because it was the only aspect of my life I could control. She was alarmed at the elements of my upbringing and i was shocked when she struggled to hold back tears after hearing my history.